goodness

hmm... i think that last post made everybody so uncomfortable that they ignored it (heh everybody being two people and possibly a third party who clicked on 'random blog' and ended up here, thus being comforted because my life is more dull than their own). that's the thing... I wonder why death is so uncomfortable for people to talk about? that's a whole other kettle of bags, though. i'm sure i'll write something about that later...

annnnyyyyway, more importantly, vacation starts in the morning.

furthermore... fuck man this is so annoying. so last week, my boss (let's call him 'T') asked me to pick up my pay, otherwise he'd mail it. Now, this is a nice, nice guy, but he talks a lot (let's hope T never finds this bloggy poo). well today I was in a rush, doing all sorts of last-minute pitter-pattering around the city (why MUST the bank close so fucking early?) so I didn't have the time to hang out and chat which i normally would have done.

and why would i be going to the office today when my cheque was ready LAST week?

well, thanks to our good friends at canada post, a local mailing has taken more than a week. super. i had to deposit it tonight because i leave tomorrow before the banks open. anyway so i went, got the cheque from The Other Guy (T was not in at the time... funnily enough he was battling the battle axe at canada post heh).... and gosh darnit. when i looked at it... Okay i know i shouldn't complain about money, and i realize this operation is a little in the red and my pay is slightly irregular (in terms of amount), but man. for 40 hours of work, this was not enough.

whatever.

"Money's money and we'll take it any way we can get it from you."
-- Ernestine Tomlin (Ya know, the telephone operator character played by Lily Tomlin on laugh-in)


hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhask;djfh a ;skdhfaksjdhfkja fuck. i'm so slakdjflas about this thing. the getting-to-the-airport-on-time-and-not-going-through-hell-just-'cause-i-look-like-a-metal-head thing.


yeah. i am a metalhead, but.

i had a sudden urge to search for

this.

more posts?!

glory, osufactor, i'm not sure what to write about!!

but thanks for the ego boost. glad somebody's reading this shit :D har har.

OH here's something... i'm trying my hand at writing something for a string quartet, but er... well it's a little contemporary. that doesn't mean it's metal (though it could be), but it's sort of messy. yeah. plus i'll have to rewrite it later because of the fucking alto clef and the damned five-steps-down viola. actually i'm trying to make the viola more prominent than it usually is... poor little viola. damn violins get all the glory... so anyway the cello and viola are carrying it with 1st violin doing some fluffy stuff on top.


yup. somehow i doubt i'll ever finish this, as i don't have a platform for it and would honestly be embarrassed to give it to a real quartet, but hey. we'll see.

Ahh... fuck.

yeah.

paint job 4: into blue abyss

it's SO blue, i can't believe it.

i think i'll have to get another colour to go over one of the walls, but for now, the past has been covered up and i guess that's all that counts.

still need to go over and fix the sloppiness and finish some boarders and whatnot...
i should be happy about all this, and i am, but for some reason i'm consumed by a really negative feeling at this point. not sure what it stems from (okay, i sort of do), but i need to push it all away again. footsome changes, ironthunder, footsome fucking changes.

paint job part 3.5 - a suggestion

"paint it sun
dip the brush into the sun
see what color comes out."

paint job part 3

dislik china or whatever has been applied to some walls. goodness. it's looking VERY blue.

paint job part 2

primer is done. the walls are now white-ish, though a little blotchy in some parts. Plus there's still some unidentifiable goo left over from the person who had the space before me. i think he had some bette davis poster pasted directly to the wall (no thumbtacks??), which left not only a trace of an enlarged eyelash, but many bits of glued on paper. i lost patience with the putty knife and instead primered over it.

damn.

so the walls will be lumpy, but it's an old building, so everything is lumpy and generally misaligned, which i suppose has some sort of lopsided charm.

so... i suppose the next step, while i'm waiting for that to dry, the azure afternoon which will go over the skirting board (or 'baseboard,' for you folks without a british background har har) and the incoherently-titled main wall colour. china delft? i don't know. it's some kind of blue as well, only lighter.

the end.

paint job

Well, I'm saying goodbye to the misery of my chamber. torture chamber, you may well ask? not quite. there were no racks or water funnels. i'm being melodramatic, but the past still lives on (isn't that a Falconer lyric?)

anyway i'm trying to do away with the past... but somehow i feel it's kind of a band-aid solution. i'll still know what lurks beneath the "azure afternoon" and plastic wood putty. i guess i won't have to look at it anymore, plus i can actually bring friends up to my room if i so choose to.

ah well. it's a good thing... can i say that without stepping on a copyright infringement? i don't know. ms stewart, i apologize.

well. guess i'll get to it *panics*

random painting

(betrayal of christ, in case you're wondering. just always liked it.)

one of those days

there's something that's really pissing me off and making me anxious and i have no idea what it is.

"one of those days."

well, every day is one of those days. "those" could mean anything depending on what kind of day it is. If you're boundlessly content, it could still be "those." just a happy "those."


you know what i mean (maybe).

a description of me.

here is what .... said about me. it makes tons of sense:

you are just
like a tree
surrounded by peddals
of the mayflower
Combusting
with
friends
and joy
unnngh



that's all. you know who you are. i won't use your real name because i don't want to use my real name on this even though YOU use your real name.


i hate cramps.

and then

i went back in and there was another mailing list email... all in finnish. here, have fun.


16.-17.2.2007 KAAPELITEHTAALLA

- Aikataulut verkossa
- Klinikkaohjelma tarjoaa erikoisuuksia
- Finnish Metal Awards –äänestyksessä jälleen suhinaa
- Liput liikkuvat liukkaasti – räväkät juhlat tiedossa

Helsingin Kaapelitehtaalla helmikuun 16. ja 17. päivä möyryävän metallimusiikin erikoistapahtuman, Finnish Metal Expon ohjelmakartta on nyt valmis. Mm. DragonForcen ja Amon Amarthin tähdittämän juhlan aikataulut löytyvät osoitteesta www.fme.fi.

FME:n kahden klinikkalavan esitysajat ja ohjelmisto on myös julkistettu. Paikalla on jälleen alan kotimainen aatelisto ja yleisöä hemmotellaan myös harvinaisuuksilla. Musamaailma marssittaa Valssaamon klinikkalavalle mm. Children of Bodomin, Nightwishin ja Mokoman jäseniä ja erikoisuutena nähdään Swallow The Sun koko bändin voimin sekä erikoiskokoonpano, Godsplague plays Pantera featuring Kai Hahto. Toisella, Kaapelitehtaan J-aulaan sijoitetulla klinikkalavalla tarjoillaan mm. huippuluokan rumpuklinikointia Jaska Raatikaisen ja Kai Hahdon toimesta. Klinikkaohjelmat ja aikataulut kokonaisuudessaan nyt netissä.

Finnish Metal Awards –vuosiäänestys on päättynyt. Ääniä annettiin lähes 6000. Kansa on siis puhunut. Palkinnot jaetaan ne ansaitseville perjantaina 16.2. klo 21:00 alkavassa gaalassa.

FME:n käsiohjelma on paisunut entisestään. Nyt 48-sivuista lehteä jaellaan ennakkoon ensi viiikosta lähtien ainakin messuihin osallistuvissa pääkaupungin soitinliikkeissä sekä Hellsinki Rock Shopissa. Ohjelmalehdessä on kaikki ajankohtainen info aikatauluista pohjakarttoihin ja näytteilleasettajien omia infoja ja mainoksia.

Liput Finnish Metal Expoon ovat liikkuneet erittäin liukkaasti. Molemmille päiville on lippuja kuitenkin vielä jäljellä. Lippuja myydään Tiketin (0600-1-1616, 0,66 e/min + pvm) ja Lippupalvelun (0600-10-800, 1,50 e/min + pvm ja 0600-10-020, 5 e/ puhelu + pvm) lippukaupoissa, puhelinpalvelussa sekä netissä (www.tiketti.fi ja www.lippupalvelu.fi). Tapahtumaan myydään ainoastaan yhden päivän lippuja hintaan 20 e/kpl (perjantai) ja 22 e/kpl (lauantai). Tapahtumaan ei ole ikärajaa, täysi-ikäisille on anniskelualueita.

Muista myös Tarot torstaina 15.2. Tavastialla. Lauteita lämmittää Leverage. Liput Tavastialle 12e ja ennakkoon Tiketistä.

Liityminen ja eroaminen postitusllistalta www.fme.fi.

damn head

i went into my email inbox to send a message to somebody, then i got all distracted with the new messages, which were mostly fucking mailing list poops and one 'real' email which simply said "yep," then i forgot to send the email. now i remembered and had to sign back in, but it's being slow.

the end (of this post).